I have officially been growing this human for 20 weeks. Yep, that means we are halfway to the moment of holding our little guy for the first time!
The past 4 months have been full of emotion, stress, sickness, house-hunting, car-purchasing, craziness, and love… and I wouldn’t change a single moment (actually, if the morning sickness hadn’t hit me like a truck, that would have been cool…).
I am feeling this little baby kick and wiggle now. He already has my whole heart and has me completely wrapped around his fingers. I love this guy more than I ever thought was humanly possible and I haven’t even held him yet. I cannot wait to meet him in January! I am happy most of the time and when I’m not… well, let’s just chalk it up to hormones.
I have been talking to Matt (Winston’s dad slash the love of my life) about what I want our son to be like and we have been having the discussions about how we want to raise him.
Characteristically, we want Winston to be kind and honest, strong and smart, happy and healthy. Those aren’t all the things we want to raise him to be, but those kind of encompass everything else. Physically, I think it would be nice if he got my curly hair, but honestly it’s the character stuff that we care about.
Throughout all of my time being pregnant so far, I have had so much support from family and friends. Matt’s parents and my parents have been wonderful. They are all excited for their very first grandbaby and they all like to check in to see how Winston and I are doing. I feel truly loved by them and I know that their hearts are exploding for Winston, just like mine.
Speaking of support, I just need to let the world know about how truly amazing Matt is. Pregnancy isn’t just tough on Mamas, but it definitely strains Daddies, too. This man has been putting in time to do lots of house-hunting and budgeting and cooking while still having a job. He does everything he can to make life easier for me and he lets me take time for myself. He is fully feeling the pressure that being a new parent brings on, and I have to say, he is handling it all like a champ. Matt has been at every doctor appointment and he picks a book for us to read to Winston at bedtime. We all have our moments, and he has his, but I honestly couldn’t do this without him. (Hey Matt, thank you for all you do- I love you!)
At the end of the day, after reading a book to our little guy, I just thank God for all I have been given. Our doctor is so competent and caring. Matt is supportive and loving. Our parents are encouraging and excited. This baby and I are 20 weeks along and we are healthy.
So, this is halfway. This is happy. This is healthy.